My lil peanut

As you know my little boy was born at 29 weeks and weighed 1 pound and 15 ounces... His birthday was Tuesday and I couldn't be more proud of my lil guy..

He is still a skinny thing but he's healthy and active.... I read posts on Facebook of how their baby's are so chunky and gaining so much weight and makes me lil jealous... I know ..Silly as that sounds.... I would want him to be chunky but He's skinny but he's healthy..he has come such a long way.. It just bothers me when I get weird looks when I tell people how old he is...but then when I tell them how much he weighed at birth I get a dif look... I am proud of you emmitt no matter of you don't meet the weight , I love you no matter what 

Dear single me

Things I should of known and appreciated more when I was single and didn't have a baby:

1. Enjoy going to bathroom by yourself 

2. Enjoy being messy ... 

3. Enjoy taking quiet car rides and by yourself driving to no where ... 

4. Enjoy combing your hair , shaving your legs,brushing your hair and doing your make up ... 

5. Enjoy going out with your friends and getting cute

6. Enjoy sleeping late and having the whole bed to yourself 

All these things will change.. 

Instead of going to bathroom by yourself your lil baby will follow you . Wants to be where you are... He loves you and adores you and will put his arms up just so you mommy will give him a hug....

You can't be messy because you love your hubby and baby and want to take care of them. Even thou your not a great cook

No more quiet rides because when you listen to music your baby will sing a long baby singing...or your baby will cry and cry until you get him out of the car and he will smile so big at you

Many days you will be stuck in your Pjs bc those are your cleaning days or your baby wasn't feeling well or just having to much fun to care if you didn't brush your hair.

You still go out with friends but it's not the same bc all you think about is your baby and your husband so you don't stay out that long

Your now a morning bird and share the bed with your baby and husband.. Somehow baby ends up in bed... You and your hubby sleep on the edge...

Being single has it's pros I do miss some of those things and could add a lot more to that list.. Even thou they all sound great but I wouldn't trade it for the world... I love my husband and my baby . They are my world :) 

Green juice

Had the worst stomachs ache after eating fast food ... I have never had that bad if ache from eating a burger ... No more fast food for me.. Stomachs hurt for 2 days.. Worsted pain ever.. So my husband made me a green juice this morning : 

And it was delicious... It had pineapple , cucumber, apples ... That I could taste he might of thrown something else in there... I could never be on a juicing diet.. My husband every now and then will be.. I can't have a juice without eating something.. I don't like feeling hungry and I feel if I drink juice all day I won't be so nice .. I'm not nice when I'm hungry.. But I do like the juices he makes.. Not so much carrot.. But I do feel better after drinking it... So no more fast food for me; it's not so nice to my belly

#tbt Facebook

Today is throw back Thursday on Facebook.. Newsfeed filled with photos of people when they were younger with goofy haircuts and not so stylish clothes. Pictures filled with memories ... And yes I have done this and today I have.. I posted a photo when I first held my little baby.. 

I got this photo off the blog my husband made for our emmitt .. Because emmitt was born so early he had to spend 70 days in the hospital .. This is the blog my husband made http://bit.ly/babyemmitt he took a photo of our son every day.. 

First day my babe was born.. So tiny, so fragile... Looking at these pictures make me feel so grateful that I have my little bubba and how far he has come.. Its crazy how much I love him .. We never missed a day at the hospital either we would sleep there or wake up early to seem him..  So many sleepless night..It was all worth it.. I love my baby

Huggies vs pampers

When my little one was born he used preemie pampers , he didn't wear them for long bc their very small even for preemies ... He soon wore preemie huggies, when he came home I stuck to huggies that I got from his baby shower.. Soon ran out and started to use pampers- swaddlers. I soon noticed my emmitt was getting a rash but started to look like a burn.. Started getting bigger and bigger... So quit using them and put him in huggies all natural and used ad ointment soon went away In couple of days...  So then I strictly used huggies... Huggies can be expensive .. About 4 months later I still had pampers from baby shower but they were baby dry so I tried using those.. No burn no rash.. But didn't want to spend money buying pampers... Soon ran out of my supply so started by non brand diapers from publix or target... Those worked great but not for over night diapers... Huggies are the best for over night diapers... I have to say huggies Are the best haven't tried luvs yet I heard they are cheap and have no issues.. That will be the next diaper I try.. 

Not done kale...

Because of my obsession with kale I tried these: 

To be honest I was a little dissatisfied ... Didn't taste like kale more like peanuts .. They were small just fell apart in your hand... Not very happy about my kale tonight I just stick to making it myself 

1 lb and 15 ounces

Yes, that's how small my lil baby was when he was born... Emmitt was born 2 months early and doctors are still not sure why he came early.. He was at hospital for 70 days.. The longest 70 days of our lives... He came home with no issues .. He is now around 14 pounds 

Still a skinny thing but so happy and healthy... I am so In Love with this boy and so thankful for the god I serve.. This boy was surrounded by so much prayer and is testimony of gods faithfulness.. 

Today I was at Ross and I overheard these lady's conversation .. One of the lady's asked how her grandson was doing and her response was he is finally 2 pounds.. I could hear the fear and stress in her voice .. Brought back how I felt the first couple days with emmitt ..I turned around with emmitt on my hip and shared emmitts testimony and to not give up and I will pray for her little one bc emmitt had a lot of prayer and is a testimony of it.. She thanked me and said  emmitt and I encouraged her..

Had so many wires and tubes... Such a scary time in my life but I held on to god and knew I would be taking this boy home .. 

Emmitt is a tough little guy and has come so far... So in love with this boy

I pretend to be healthy

Had the most delicouse dinner last night ... Wish I could say I cooked it but no.. Went to ethos vegan resteraunt and had bay cakes- chickpeas and veggies.. Taste very similar to crab cakes... But so much better... Found this recipe will be making this soon!!! If you have made anything similar to this let me know 

http://gourmandelle.com/chiftelute-de-naut-healthy-vegan-falafel/

Raw cows milk

I have tried raw cows milk the other day... To be honest the taste wasn't amazing .. It reminded me of skim milk... I understand it's healthy... Healthy is the new thing if your not eating something organic your labeled unhealthy... I like feeling healthy.. But I feel as if I want to eat a burger from Wendy's let me be.. And I don't think that labels me unhealthy.. I think I eat pretty well there are things I need to eat lest of just bc it makes me not feel well or is really not good for me like soda..Raw cows milk to me is healthy and probably amazing for you... Maybe in future it will be something I will enjoy but right now I will enjoy my 2 percent...

In the air

Took my son on his first airplane ride on Monday ... I was a little nervouse to go by myself with my 9 month baby- emmitt.. He did great.. So many people told me they cry while their ears pop, well emmitt was a wake for five mins then passed out... The last 30 mins on plane he was awake... So thankful by all the people I sat by.. They talked to him and made him giggle.. He didn't cry but got a little anxy out the landing ... But so amazed how well he did.... So thankful for all the kind people that helped me with my stroller or offered to hold him... Sorry I said no I don't hand my baby to anyone ... Emmitt is teething and he is being a great baby for having teeth coming in and plus we are on vacation ...... I have read things how to travel with a baby and blah blah... Really every baby is different .. Your baby might scream on the plane even if you brought all the toys or try to give the bottle.. My advice is for you not to be anxy bc your baby feeds off of it.. Be calm and try make best of it even your baby is red at face screaming... Give plenty of kisses and hugs..

I'm not Russian and Madi is my name

---->I think my whole life I have been mistaken for someone else.. Growing up I had a best friend and we looked a lot like.. Maybe it was just brown hair. Freckles and we were skinny... But so many times I was mistaken to be her at church by her friends or her brothers... We soon both moved and I was no longer mistaken as "Liz".. 

In high school I was mistaken as that girl that you sometimes talk to. Couple of times I had random people come up to me asking me if I finished so and so assignment or what do I think of that teacher .. You know small talk but the thing is I didn't have that teacher or that class with that person.. I would explain to that person sorry I'm not who you think I am ... I don't have that class?? It was always so awkward but hilarious..Maybe it was because I dressed emo..Ribbon on the neck, short blonde hair and skinny jeans.. Many girls at my school dressed like this.. I actually enjoyed those moments and became friends with  some of these random strangers...soon I grew out of my emo clothes and became an adult...

In college I was complimented with I like the way you dress , you look like my friend or you remind me of my cousin/sister/niece...  Which was cute and sweet....... 

But soon I became Russian... I went to a bible school in Kansas City called Ihop no not for pancakes--> International House of Prayer.. And while I was there I experienced people coming up to me speaking to me in Russian or asking if I was Russian . To me this was a huge compliment because Russians are so beautiful!!! Really they are!!! 

While I was at bible school I was also mistaken as Lilly .. I found this out one day walking down a hallway and this guy who u did not know trying to booty bump  me... I couldn't stop laughing and trying to push him away and he his eyes got huge and face red with embarrassment . Saying I'm sorry I thought you were Lilly... I has no idea who this Lilly character was...  But her friends like to beat me up..I was sitting in the prayer room at bible school and I was really into reading the bible then all if sudden I get hit in the leg with a bible... I look up and this guy is smiling at me then his eyes get huge and I must of gave him an evil look and I say no I'm not Lilly.. He said sorry and sits two seats away from me... It felt so awkward and so funny ..he didn't laugh he prob felt bad...  I had to move seats bc I couldn't stop laughing..I finally met this Lilly character with actually not meeting her..I was eating in cafeteria and this lady comes up to me saying how much she loved the book that I lent her.. I'm like that's cool... But I didn't lend you a book?? She's like oh your not Lilly .. No I am not we both started laughing.. Lilly actually worked in the cafeteria at bible school.. I got up and walked out of the cafeteria and saw her and we both smiled ... I wish I told her something witty.. Like you need new friends they like to beat me up... But I didn't.. I was told by some of my friends that they thought Lilly was me and yelled at her but I don't think any booty bumping was involved ..

I moved back home and longer as Lilly or Russian ... I do somewhat look like my sister in law.. And couple of times I get mistaken as her .. But not ambushed.. Now I figured how to not look like someone else: get married, and have a baby... Really I am now just Brian's wife and emmitts mommy ... And I love it!!<-----

How do you start a blog? with kale of course

To be honest I have tried over and over how to start this blog. I have written post and deleted them many many times. I tried to be deep, personal, inspiring or intelligent.. The only reasons why I am writing this blog is because I am a stay at home mom and I think facebook is tired of seeing all my posts of my son...He is adorable :)

So I have tried to start this blog about how much I love jesus, pinterest projects, food, or about being a mother of a preemie.. One thing is I rather be private but yet I love to talk about jesus and about my son. And the other reason why I don't know how to start this is do people really care what I am saying is or is anyone reading this except my husband....love you hun

I have erase the title of the blog over and over...So I just went with something random..Which is what my blog is going to be...random...filled with things I love...

speaking of love, I have a crazy obession with kale lately. Kale has become so popular used just be a garnish that you would pick off your plate. But I love it !!! I love to roast it and make kale chips. And is so healthy for you...I am no health nut but sometimes I try to be..here is a recipe that I found:http://allrecipes.com/recipe/baked-kale-chips/

What you will need: 

1 bunch of kale

1 tablespoon of olive oil

1 teaspoon salt.....(I add a drizzle of lemon juice)

1. Preheat an oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C). Line a non insulated cookie sheet with parchment paper.
2. With a knife or kitchen shears carefully remove the leaves from the thick stems and tear into bite size pieces. Wash and thoroughly dry kale with a salad spinner. Drizzle kale with olive oil and sprinkle with seasoning salt.
3. Bake until the edges brown but are not burnt, 10 to 15 minutes.

The crisper the better well to me they are..

Also kale is amazing in soups, juices and sauteed. So go get your kale on!!!!!!!!

by the way if your reading this...please comment.. I love comments...or how you started your blog